.​.​.​Is Growing Up Never

by The Harrison Four

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about

All our music is free, but if you want to make a donation you can send something via paypal to harrisonfourband@gmail.com - We appreciate it

All these songs were written in between Summer of 2011 and Fall of 2012. Most everything was recorded in Fall of 2012, in James' parents' basement in Germantown, MD on a TASCAM DP-008 8-Track Digital Portastudio. Finishing touches were recorded at The Lab in Alexandria, VA. Thanks to James Haitchwai for letting us borrow the recording equipment.

This record was originally supposed to be half of a split with Bouncing Betty (bouncingbetty.wordpress.com), our good friends from Baltimore, MD. If you haven't heard of them check them out! They're a fast, gruff, straight-to-the-point punk rock band with a sound channeling inspiration from The Clash, Rancid, and Crass. Also, smart, politically charged lyrics.

Their demo, which you can download at the aforementioned link, was supposed to be SIDE A to our SIDE B, but technical, logistical, and personal hiccups on our part prevented us from putting out our recordings at the same time as theirs. So now you're just left with two awesome records to listen to.

credits

released 14 March 2013
James Berbert on lead vocals and most guitar
Tom Ripley on bass, some guitar, some vocals
Michael Webermann on drums, some vocals

All songs written and recorded by The Harrison Four. DIY or die.

Cover art by James, inked by KT Caffey
Art inspired by a Greg Hildebrandt sketch of Peter Pan

Initial mixing by James & Michael
Final mixing and mastering done by the patient and persevering Dan ABH

Thanks to Ashley Stevens for helping with backing vocals.

Thanks to Dan ABH, Ryan Harvey, Alex Wilhem, Maddy Strassler, Mick Dillon, Alex Heinz, Noorann Fatties, Tenley Empire, Ariana Stone, Cami Schaeffer, Drew Sherlock, Mary Donoghue, Sami Brussels, Dirk Keaton, Aliya Webermann, Scott Jones, Matt PunkCDSampler, Lizz Mazer, Rachel Fink, Anthony Poynter, Amateur Thieves, Collapser, PRIESTS, Jake Mayday, Oklahoma Car Crash, Kill Lincoln, Among Friends, Told Slant, M.R. SMITH, Signals Midwest, Bouncing Betty, & THE LAB (all ages)

Various inspiration robbery from Cleveland Bound Death Sentence, Sonic Youth, BtMI!, Green Day

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Track Name: Bookends
like two bookends of a collection i never read
like two coasts of a country most of which I've yet to see
like two friends awkwardly situated on a couch watching TV
'cause wasting time is the only thing that I know how to do
and I want to waste my time with you

i moved to this city as such the optimist
take the good fight to them hey i'll be an activist
black bloc on the IMF. look mom i'm an anarchist!
now it's two years later...

it's two years later and i can't stop feeling depressed!
making poor decisions and flirting with nihilists
over empty pizza boxes and beer cases: my empty bank balance!!

and the sad thing is i'm getting kind of used to this
not believing in myself
and wasting time is the only thing that i know how to do

i just want some comfort for tonight
just to get to sleep well i've been sleep walking my entire life!!

so i got to drinkin', yeah i got to thinking bout if singin' songs
about how i'm weak really make me strong.

i just want some comfort for tonight
a heart beat to nuzzle up against
but all i find is a resin caked bong
smelling like painful memories of the last three years
a downward spiral of decaying dreams and dried up tears
i know you know that i've been running too damn slow
i know you know

it's time to go

and everything i love about this place
can be summed up in a flex your head tattoo
but my exodus is long overdue
Track Name: Rachel Says
my dad says, "get your head in the game
it's a global competitive market, ya gotta stay sane kid
shove yourself in a suit and tie,
look at me i'm already one foot in the grave"
but to me the whole world's just like high school
same shit with a new set of rules
if career opportunities are just gym class
i'm gonna sit on the sidelines in my jeans and get the D

i don't wanna get older and jaded and worn out
and spread so thin that i can't even get a word out to myself
i just wanna be dedicated
i just want to be self sufficient
but that doesn't mean stealing from Whole Foods just to eat
smoking weed watching king of the hill reruns yeah just to fall asleep
oh i learned about feminism through 90's tv
the Simpsons, Rosanne, & buffy

Rachel says Rachel says
that I'm going to be a kid forever
that I'm growing up never.
And she swears it's a good thing
I disagree when I think of what my future's gonna bring.

I don't want to get older and sell out what it is to be me
(i just want to be free)
Just gotta die for king & god & country
I just wanna be free!
I just wanna be me!
But that ship has sailed far away "away)
it has sunk in the Atlantic ocean and that's where it will stay.

Rachel says Rachel says
that i'm going to be a kid forever
that i'm growing up never
and she swears it's a good thing
i disagree when I think of what my future's gonna bring
more late nights spent alone
your measly pay check ain't ever gonna turn your house into a home

i just wanna be stable
but i'm not able waiting for
everything around me to crash into post-21st
century debris oh uh oh oh

debilitated my life spent wasted in front of a
TV screen wondering what's wrong with me
and now a thousand anxieties are free to scream to me
that you don't really feel like that
you just want someone to tell you
it's going to be okay
it's gonna be okay
no! it's not gonna be okay!
Track Name: Harder! Faster!
have you ever felt such extreme sense of societal guilt
for asking for what you really wanted?
have you ever felt shame so caught up in their morality game
too afraid to ask for what you really wanted?

hey what's your preference?
hey want's your sex?
hey want's your gender?
tell me what does it matter?

i'm through with abstinence
girl teach me about dominance

legs stick straight into the sky
everything that they told me was a lie
oh yeah push it deeper harder and fasted come on

tease me, please me, slam me up against a wall
still gonna be screaming until the last one's bound to fall
do this with my consent it's called "kinky"
do this without my consent it's called police repression

just ask the girls screaming in the streets
they'll tell ya, "Fuck the NYPD!"
and fuck the sense of entitlement
from every greedy little boy
to the furthest reaches of our government

helicopters cut apart the sky
bystanders scream on their lunch break
"why oh why tell me"
come on kids push it harder and faster
stoke up those revolutionary fires
get kinky in the back of cop cars
and plead the 5th in the cell that they'll lock you in

push it harder
push it faster
push it harder
push it faster
Track Name: I Don't Belong
i don't wanna go outside today
i gotta feel the pain of the toes i'm stepping on
i don't wanna go outside today
so anxious every word out of my mouth is wrong

i don't belong
i don't belong here
i don't belong
i don't belong anywhere
i don't belong

i don't wanna go outside today
i gotta sheild myself from their skeptical eyes
little girls were taught never to trust me
other boys taught to compete and to cheat and lie

i don't belong
i don't belong here
i don't belong
i don't belong anywhere
i don't belong

i was taught that life's a competition
here kid here's a fucking hefty head start
and now I see with a whole new kind of vision
uneven playing field, you're standing on mountains of broken hearts
broken hearts, our culture thrives on broken hearts

i don't belong

i don't belong
i don't belong here
i don't belong
i don't belong anywhere
i don't belong
I don't belong I don't belong I don't belong I don't belong
Track Name: For Anthony...
i heard a grieving chorus say
Anthony is on his way
on his way out
i heard a grieving chorus cry
"why do the good ones have to die?
seemingly way before their time?"

i thought about it walking through the city
how everything good and young just fades away
more reason to live it up today

pick up the pen and try to write you
but i don't know what good that'll do
yeah, I don't think that that would help...
if we all had your courage
if we all had your heart then this
cancer eating at our world
would have never gotten it's start

i thought about it walking through the city
how everything good and young just fades away
more reason to live it up today
i thought about it walking in the city
how everything good and young just fades away

i'm gonna feel sad all day
i'm gonna feel sad all day
i'm gonna feel sad all day

you were so giving
i was so lazy
you were so giving
my mind is hazy
you were so giving
this world was crazy
to take you from us
we weren't ready
you're never ready

tell your friends every day that you love them
and you would miss them if they were to go away
tell your friends every day that you love them
and you would miss them if they were to go away
don't go away!
Track Name: Sleepovers
biking around downtown in the cold
spiraling in 4 foot wide circles on Lamont
no where to go and no one to call
just a few sheets of paper and my own head to crawl into
i got a full key ring with no open doors
can i crash at your place tonight? i just need a floor
the reminiscing has been killing me
i don't know what burns worse, whiskey or the memories

these streets tell so many stories
i couldn't hope to hear them all
faded memories I still hold close to me
i love waking up to you
i love waking up to you

walking down 18th huddled in the cold
if this city's leaking water then I guess we are the mold
two friends rocking the sinking ship of youth
i'm not distressed as long as I got you
with other people I never know what to say
the relentless sense of sincerity
and security that you give to me
i hope it always stays that way

your eyes tell so many stories
i couldn't hope to hear them all
faded memories I still hold close to me
i love waking up to you
i love waking up to you

she said, "the east coast raised me all bitter longing and hopeful
for a future that's never gonna come
the west coast broke me
i don't know if I know how to be loved

drunken epiphanies in DC, in Vancouver,
in my parents house serve to show ourselves
what we're really all about
and that we're good and we deserve to be loved
i love waking up to you
i love waking up to you

the east coast raised me all bitter longing and hopeful
for a future that's never gonna come
the west coast broke me
i don't know if I know how to be loved

the east coast raised me all bitter longing and hopeful
for a future that's never gonna come
the west coast broke me
i don't know if I know how to be loved
and it sounds just like a broken record
east side, west side man whatever
man whatever
man whatever!