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.​.​.​Is Growing Up Never

by The Harrison Four

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1.
Bookends 03:25
like two bookends of a collection i never read like two coasts of a country most of which I've yet to see like two friends awkwardly situated on a couch watching TV 'cause wasting time is the only thing that I know how to do and I want to waste my time with you i moved to this city as such the optimist take the good fight to them hey i'll be an activist black bloc on the IMF. look mom i'm an anarchist! now it's two years later... it's two years later and i can't stop feeling depressed! making poor decisions and flirting with nihilists over empty pizza boxes and beer cases: my empty bank balance!! and the sad thing is i'm getting kind of used to this not believing in myself and wasting time is the only thing that i know how to do i just want some comfort for tonight just to get to sleep well i've been sleep walking my entire life!! so i got to drinkin', yeah i got to thinking bout if singin' songs about how i'm weak really make me strong. i just want some comfort for tonight a heart beat to nuzzle up against but all i find is a resin caked bong smelling like painful memories of the last three years a downward spiral of decaying dreams and dried up tears i know you know that i've been running too damn slow i know you know it's time to go and everything i love about this place can be summed up in a flex your head tattoo but my exodus is long overdue
2.
Rachel Says 03:04
my dad says, "get your head in the game it's a global competitive market, ya gotta stay sane kid shove yourself in a suit and tie, look at me i'm already one foot in the grave" but to me the whole world's just like high school same shit with a new set of rules if career opportunities are just gym class i'm gonna sit on the sidelines in my jeans and get the D i don't wanna get older and jaded and worn out and spread so thin that i can't even get a word out to myself i just wanna be dedicated i just want to be self sufficient but that doesn't mean stealing from Whole Foods just to eat smoking weed watching king of the hill reruns yeah just to fall asleep oh i learned about feminism through 90's tv the Simpsons, Rosanne, & buffy Rachel says Rachel says that I'm going to be a kid forever that I'm growing up never. And she swears it's a good thing I disagree when I think of what my future's gonna bring. I don't want to get older and sell out what it is to be me (i just want to be free) Just gotta die for king & god & country I just wanna be free! I just wanna be me! But that ship has sailed far away "away) it has sunk in the Atlantic ocean and that's where it will stay. Rachel says Rachel says that i'm going to be a kid forever that i'm growing up never and she swears it's a good thing i disagree when I think of what my future's gonna bring more late nights spent alone your measly pay check ain't ever gonna turn your house into a home i just wanna be stable but i'm not able waiting for everything around me to crash into post-21st century debris oh uh oh oh debilitated my life spent wasted in front of a TV screen wondering what's wrong with me and now a thousand anxieties are free to scream to me that you don't really feel like that you just want someone to tell you it's going to be okay it's gonna be okay no! it's not gonna be okay!
3.
have you ever felt such extreme sense of societal guilt for asking for what you really wanted? have you ever felt shame so caught up in their morality game too afraid to ask for what you really wanted? hey what's your preference? hey want's your sex? hey want's your gender? tell me what does it matter? i'm through with abstinence girl teach me about dominance legs stick straight into the sky everything that they told me was a lie oh yeah push it deeper harder and fasted come on tease me, please me, slam me up against a wall still gonna be screaming until the last one's bound to fall do this with my consent it's called "kinky" do this without my consent it's called police repression just ask the girls screaming in the streets they'll tell ya, "Fuck the NYPD!" and fuck the sense of entitlement from every greedy little boy to the furthest reaches of our government helicopters cut apart the sky bystanders scream on their lunch break "why oh why tell me" come on kids push it harder and faster stoke up those revolutionary fires get kinky in the back of cop cars and plead the 5th in the cell that they'll lock you in push it harder push it faster push it harder push it faster
4.
i don't wanna go outside today i gotta feel the pain of the toes i'm stepping on i don't wanna go outside today so anxious every word out of my mouth is wrong i don't belong i don't belong here i don't belong i don't belong anywhere i don't belong i don't wanna go outside today i gotta sheild myself from their skeptical eyes little girls were taught never to trust me other boys taught to compete and to cheat and lie i don't belong i don't belong here i don't belong i don't belong anywhere i don't belong i was taught that life's a competition here kid here's a fucking hefty head start and now I see with a whole new kind of vision uneven playing field, you're standing on mountains of broken hearts broken hearts, our culture thrives on broken hearts i don't belong i don't belong i don't belong here i don't belong i don't belong anywhere i don't belong I don't belong I don't belong I don't belong I don't belong
5.
i heard a grieving chorus say Anthony is on his way on his way out i heard a grieving chorus cry "why do the good ones have to die? seemingly way before their time?" i thought about it walking through the city how everything good and young just fades away more reason to live it up today pick up the pen and try to write you but i don't know what good that'll do yeah, I don't think that that would help... if we all had your courage if we all had your heart then this cancer eating at our world would have never gotten it's start i thought about it walking through the city how everything good and young just fades away more reason to live it up today i thought about it walking in the city how everything good and young just fades away i'm gonna feel sad all day i'm gonna feel sad all day i'm gonna feel sad all day you were so giving i was so lazy you were so giving my mind is hazy you were so giving this world was crazy to take you from us we weren't ready you're never ready tell your friends every day that you love them and you would miss them if they were to go away tell your friends every day that you love them and you would miss them if they were to go away don't go away!
6.
Sleepovers 03:04
biking around downtown in the cold spiraling in 4 foot wide circles on Lamont no where to go and no one to call just a few sheets of paper and my own head to crawl into i got a full key ring with no open doors can i crash at your place tonight? i just need a floor the reminiscing has been killing me i don't know what burns worse, whiskey or the memories these streets tell so many stories i couldn't hope to hear them all faded memories I still hold close to me i love waking up to you i love waking up to you walking down 18th huddled in the cold if this city's leaking water then I guess we are the mold two friends rocking the sinking ship of youth i'm not distressed as long as I got you with other people I never know what to say the relentless sense of sincerity and security that you give to me i hope it always stays that way your eyes tell so many stories i couldn't hope to hear them all faded memories I still hold close to me i love waking up to you i love waking up to you she said, "the east coast raised me all bitter longing and hopeful for a future that's never gonna come the west coast broke me i don't know if I know how to be loved drunken epiphanies in DC, in Vancouver, in my parents house serve to show ourselves what we're really all about and that we're good and we deserve to be loved i love waking up to you i love waking up to you the east coast raised me all bitter longing and hopeful for a future that's never gonna come the west coast broke me i don't know if I know how to be loved the east coast raised me all bitter longing and hopeful for a future that's never gonna come the west coast broke me i don't know if I know how to be loved and it sounds just like a broken record east side, west side man whatever man whatever man whatever!

about

All our music is free, but if you want to make a donation you can send something via paypal to harrisonfourband@gmail.com - We appreciate it

All these songs were written in between Summer of 2011 and Fall of 2012. Most everything was recorded in Fall of 2012, in James' parents' basement in Germantown, MD on a TASCAM DP-008 8-Track Digital Portastudio. Finishing touches were recorded at The Lab in Alexandria, VA. Thanks to James Haitchwai for letting us borrow the recording equipment.

This record was originally supposed to be half of a split with Bouncing Betty (bouncingbetty.wordpress.com), our good friends from Baltimore, MD. If you haven't heard of them check them out! They're a fast, gruff, straight-to-the-point punk rock band with a sound channeling inspiration from The Clash, Rancid, and Crass. Also, smart, politically charged lyrics.

Their demo, which you can download at the aforementioned link, was supposed to be SIDE A to our SIDE B, but technical, logistical, and personal hiccups on our part prevented us from putting out our recordings at the same time as theirs. So now you're just left with two awesome records to listen to.

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released March 14, 2013

James Berbert on lead vocals and most guitar
Tom Ripley on bass, some guitar, some vocals
Michael Webermann on drums, some vocals

All songs written and recorded by The Harrison Four. DIY or die.

Cover art by James, inked by KT Caffey
Art inspired by a Greg Hildebrandt sketch of Peter Pan

Initial mixing by James & Michael
Final mixing and mastering done by the patient and persevering Dan ABH

Thanks to Ashley Stevens for helping with backing vocals.

Thanks to Dan ABH, Ryan Harvey, Alex Wilhem, Maddy Strassler, Mick Dillon, Alex Heinz, Noorann Fatties, Tenley Empire, Ariana Stone, Cami Schaeffer, Drew Sherlock, Mary Donoghue, Sami Brussels, Dirk Keaton, Aliya Webermann, Scott Jones, Matt PunkCDSampler, Lizz Mazer, Rachel Fink, Anthony Poynter, Amateur Thieves, Collapser, PRIESTS, Jake Mayday, Oklahoma Car Crash, Kill Lincoln, Among Friends, Told Slant, M.R. SMITH, Signals Midwest, Bouncing Betty, & THE LAB (all ages)

Various inspiration robbery from Cleveland Bound Death Sentence, Sonic Youth, BtMI!, Green Day

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