This song is written from the perspective of a cismale dealing with the anxiety that challenging patriarchal norms can bring in every facet of the every day. It's about how illuminating but sometimes overwhelming the feminist gaze can be. It's about feeling estranged in mainstream society, but also in radical and counter culture spheres as well. It's about acknowledging and understanding your privilege and where it comes from, but also feeling hopeless and helpless and not sure what to do with it.
lyrics
i don't wanna go outside today
i gotta feel the pain of the toes i'm stepping on
i don't wanna go outside today
so anxious every word out of my mouth is wrong
i don't belong
i don't belong here
i don't belong
i don't belong anywhere
i don't belong
i don't wanna go outside today
i gotta sheild myself from their skeptical eyes
little girls were taught never to trust me
other boys taught to compete and to cheat and lie
i don't belong
i don't belong here
i don't belong
i don't belong anywhere
i don't belong
i was taught that life's a competition
here kid here's a fucking hefty head start
and now I see with a whole new kind of vision
uneven playing field, you're standing on mountains of broken hearts
broken hearts, our culture thrives on broken hearts
i don't belong
i don't belong
i don't belong here
i don't belong
i don't belong anywhere
i don't belong
I don't belong I don't belong I don't belong I don't belong
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